I lost ; I lost all my battles. I lost them because I didn’t retaliate or I should say I never wanted to fight , possibly I was not supposed to fight .

Well, I don’t know what happened. But something out there made me put my weapons down. What made me so weak ? I was not this. I was not the person who used to retreat. I always fought my battles with all my energy and courage. Then why are my shoulders down today?

How could something be so strong or I'm weakening. Have I changed ? Am I tired of fighting ? Why am I losing faith in myself ?

Today I feel I wouldn’t try to retaliate my death. I am rather waiting for it. I'm waiting for my demise !!